Insecurities

You know what sucks? When you thought your friends understands you well, who will be there for you when you need them, who will be more sensitive towards you, but in fact.. No. I can't help but i've been feeling this way for awhile now and i've always thought avoiding situations like this will make me feel happier. But, truth is, no.

People come and go, as usual right?
Some will make you feel like you're the only girl in the world, make you feel like you're important in their life, or even make you feel like you're on earth for a purpose, then suddenly, they'll leave without saying a thing. Your hopes get crushed, then get all emotional and upset. This is when insecurities slowly build up in one, then it probably affects you yourself when you meet someone new again. Yes, this happened to me many times before and all i need are my friends who can be there for me because this is what i need, comfort. But then again, i guess i'll probably be better left alone.

I'm done, i'm sick of pleasing people, i'm sick of trying to look and be better to match up with people. I've given myself and people too many chances, because i believe things will work out and be better. I've tried, i've tried so hard and i'm probably going to give it all up now.